Condolences

So they had general funeral service for the servicemen who died in the ship (40 something men.) I saw clips of it, but it was super depressing. I mean, you question the meaning of life when you look at stuff like that. So many people die, especially lately, with the crazy amount of natural disasters: I lose count to be honest. Problem with getting into Super Junior is that you get into the other Korean music wave. That was my greatest fear. I mean, you notice what is popular and what is not, and it could get messy. I personally don't want to be into other Korean pop groups, to be honest. I am sure they are great. I want to balance Super Junior w/ American songs, rather. And I have been. But this is the problem, I am not into what's been out in the American market of music. Nothing really captures me. Of course I dance to old dance songs, and some Lady Gaga's music (another guilty pleasure of mine, except that telephone song; sorry!~ it's annoying!)

But I really don't want to be in the whirl of complications of K-pop music. I am sure it could get nasty and political. Sure I appreciate 2NE1 and if I delved deeper into it, I would have been into G.O.D., which I know about 5-6 of their songs, and I appreciated their talent. But K-pop music is always constantly changing. Since i've been an SJ fan, there must be like 5-6 new groups that came up. 2Nise (a male version of 2NE1.) and another male group with high school boys. It's just too many. Now I heard story of how few years ago, this SJ fan had been really into KPOP and she committed suicide because she thought she was not pretty enough even after losing about 40 lbs or something like that. I could see teenagers, how they could be sucked into it, and they feel like they have to look like the Wondergirls, SNSD, and f(x) or any other Korean female groups. I don't think males would struggle w/ it since weight is more of a girly issue.
But weight is a hefty topic. I did not lose weight because I wanted to look like a SNSD girl or whatever. I will NEVER, EVER be 100-110 lbs which is their average weight (and I am sorry, that's just sick.) It's sad enough that I weigh more than SJ boys. For me, I just lost some interest in eating and food. But I don't want to get into it because it is such a sensitive topic. Sorry to touch a sensitive spot for some people.

As explained in my previous posts, one thing that bothers me is the image that these stars carry. I think a lot of teens feel like they are expected to look like these stars. That bothers me hella lot. And I could see how teens could get depressed over it. Sure I liked SJ because they were cute, AT FIRST; however, looks fade. They really do. If it was just looks, then I would lose interest in SJ a month of two ago. I like their music and they are deep kids. I just LOVE their music; yes I do. People who I thought was not as attractive when I first saw SJ, I am more attracted to because of their personality and sweetness (good example: Ryeowook, Eunhyuk) More of charisma. I REALLY, REALLY don't want to go too deeply into Korean pop culture, since it's so transient (I dont know how to explain that.) I could see how complicated it could become. But it is sort of, unavoidable if you are a fan of a Korean boy band. It could appear or be so superficial. Although I have solid reasons to be an SJ fan, I just don't want to delve too deeply in Kpop (the culture - especially the superficiality.) I mean, I am sure there are quite some talented (other) K artists, and I know there are. For instance, I really appreciate the freshness of FT Island boys (Jaejin, Hongki, etc.) and I heard few of Gummy's stuff and she is cool, different. But the culture is blah. Too much exterior stuff (superficiality.) All about the looks: no! I am speaking nonsense because at a park I walked too much and my legs are sore and I am tired. I will stop making nonsense to my words. Whatever.