that is how I feel. Don't they say earth is a temporary place? That is how I've been feeling. Everything feels surreal, like am I touching this? Am I really speaking to this person? The surrealism. SUJU blog is the one place where I could live like a kid... I want to be in a place where there is no hurt, there is no pain. But pain and hurts are always constant. To me at least it is. I do experience spurts of joy and happiness. I ask myself do I act like a 29 year old. Am I mature? In certain ways, yes; certain ways - no. I don't mention here, but spiritually and relationally I am going through a lot. I play myself like a devil's advocate. I am playing school but I wish to enjoy it more. More motivation. more of that umph.... But how it feels like a stranger in a foreign. Everything seems intangible. Am I seeing? feeling? sensing? Are my friends really my friends? Why do I feel like a complete stranger amongst my neighbors, people whom I see everyday, everyweek. Everything seems so surreal. I am dreaming. Pinch me. I am dreaming. Is it numbness? Am i in a cloud, a cloud of dreams? Am I joyful or am I sad? I am also befuddled about that. I don't even know. Moods change every split second. Call me bipolar. crying at one point, and dancing for joy in another split second. Most i get from people are "you are wayyyyy to hard on yourself." Your right. Majority rules. I am my own worst enemy. But the good Lord will not be pleased knowing that. The place I got to go is Psalms 139 - fearfully and wonderfully made.
***** SUJU news***********
- Super Junior - Mandarin is making new tracks.
- dream concert in KO - SUJU's in it; including other groups (powerhouses)
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