I write on this site

Life could be too serious.. sometimes. Sometimes we need comic reliefs. My gosh. Everywhere I go. Sometimes, I ask myself, do I really belong in this big city. I am sorry, sometimes, everywhere I go, people are just rude. everything is so hectic and such a go-go society. Everything is so busy. TO be honest, I think life now is too fast-paced right now. I dream about being in a countryside, drinking lemonade and watching a sunset, or my love (going hiking in a mountain where a view is spectacular.) I think it's about time where I really want to be in touch with nature. Most people who read my blog thinks I am very superficial or something since I am posting a lot of pictures of good looking boys (and sometimes girls. ~~ will do so moreso in the future, to be fair.) But, I am actually the other way around. I think I always tended to be in the serious side. I always was good at hiding things. But o how I yearn to be with nature, I want things to go back to simplicity. After the onset of technology, things just became a little too complicated. I mean, now, I cannot live without technology since I have learned to be so dependent on it, but was I meant for pre-technological days? Well, I am digressing again.

i yearn for simplicity, which statement's has nothing do with SJ or celebrities crushes I've had (and we all have fair shares of it, right??) I am a very simple person, just became so complicated, unrelunctantly. It's like being forced to grow up. When I read Brave New World, Anthem, and even heard of the story of 1984, I get really scared. Is that what we are heading towards. No individuation? We all have to be conformed to "norm." I think I read Anthem in high school, and it struck me powerfully as much as Wuthering Heights, Catcher in the Rye, To kill a mockingbird (Wuthering Heights, I could relate to the gothicity of my teenage life.... and I considered myself to be part goth and romantic... well the latter part lasted longer.) Well, going back to the Anthem by Ann Rand, are we losing our individuality? Are we too scared to voice ourselves? For awhile, I was voiceless, going through the motions everybody was going through, and was I happy? And the answer is a resounding no. Funny how as you get older you learn to appreciate yourself and learn to silence the conundrums that go outside of your ears. SOmetimes, when people force you to be a certain way, you just say "Whatever."