oh my

I have been so lazy with this site. well they are going for SS3 (concerts)!

yeah it's been awhile

So I had a long hiatus. May was a quiet month for me. Funny, since Sj had been busy and all. I am still a fan, no doubt. It's just that I got lazy with these posts and since school is over, I got very lazy. The 4th Album has done VERY well. The major news in terms of SJ is that Kangin was at the fan meeting and it was very emotional one. You see Super Junior members crying and hugging him and the fans cheering him on. The fan meeting was held in Korea (of course.) It was VERY emotional. He gained weight, but he looked the same. I tried to convert one of my friend or older sister into being a SJ fan, but unsuccessfully. Oh well. Well they did have a dream concert, did I mention about that. i hear of SJ members getting sick here and there. One being Kyuhyun. SJ-M had something going on too. So many things happening to them that I can't keep up sometimes. And I am trying to balance my own life. Shindong really wants to get married to this girl. who knows who is dating who, but it is their privacy. I am sure that the girls they are dating are drop dead gorgeous, making me look like a roach or something. well, I will miss Kangin, the person who resembles me in a lot of ways.

I still don't think my friends who are anti-K-pop or disinterested will ever know what SJ means to me. EVER. Not in a million years. As of now, they might just think of me as a crazy person. Oh well, aren't we crazy in different ways. thanks.

wanted: local SJ Fan

WANTED
let's go for the most idealistic case to the least

• A 25+ year Super Junior fan living in NYC
  
• Any 22+ year old SJ fan (ideal if 25-29)
  
• Any Super Junior fan living in NYC (could be in their teens)
• Super Junior fan ANYWHERE in the US; however, must be 22-29 years old
  
• Super Junior fan 22+ years old, anywhere in the globe
• LOCALITY is important for SJ fan (so anyone who is an SJ fan) you could be male living in NYC
• You get the idea....
  

yesung CY (alittle older than the one below)

희철 예성에 크로우즈 제로 !!


Crows Zero* to Heechul Yesung



Source: Yesung's Cy
Translation: rasinah / loveisrae@twitter

eunhyuk pulled all nighter

Eunhyuk's Cyworld Update: credit @@ Eunhyuk's cyworld diary

현재일(작성일) : 2010.05.22 토 06:07

다이어리 내용

1위 시켜 준 엘프에게 제대로 감사글 올리려고 했는데...

너무 졸려요...혼자 연습할게 좀 있어서...밤새고 지금 들어왔거든요ㅜ ㅜ

나중에 쓸께요....굿나잇!

he said he pulled an all-nighter to practice, and now he is going home. But before that he said thanks to ELF, they reached #1 (my terrible Korean translation)

the meaning of SJ to me

i know most of u may think that now I am totally addicted/ obsessed with SJ. I know you might want to place me in a psych ward or something because of my SJ~~~ But if you understand what I learned from them indirectly you would understand. if there was at least 1 SJ fan in NYC, i would seriously sky-dive tomorrow. I don't know how plausible that is, but if will it, I will. I watched "SUJU guide to SJ" for each member. And I saw myself laughing and tearing. There are times I am dubious: a 29 year old NYer with a potential to be a role model as a math teacher to become a crazy SJ addict. I think some of you may be nodding your heads. Well, I have to say, SJ is more than a music group. I watched all of the SJ guide that one fan had uploaded for all 13 members, and I am like wow. It made me realize why I am a fan in the first place. I see each of them: each unique self. You have no idea how different they are. They are all different like night and day. Sure they are talented in the same things; singing and dancing; however, personality wise you would think that they would clash, But that is not the case. You see the maternal Leeteuk, the vain but sensitive Heechul, from a man who came from China (Hangeng), to very idiosyncratic Yesung, to very masculine, tough Kangin, to comedic Shindong, to pretty boy Sungmin, to swaggerish Eunhyuk, to romantic Donghae, to very traditional Siwon to sensitive soul Ryeowook to quiet, actor Kibum to very funny, the youngest who gets away with things Kyuhyun. I mean their stories. Let me tell you.


WOW.

For some reason, their stories brought me hope. They went through a lot. i realized that there are times when I do get jealous of them because of their fame and friendships, and screaming fans left and right. I get jealous. i say, they have been through a lot and have perservered as individuals and as a group and they were able to sell 200,000+ albums. Recently, I've been jealous, telling myself WTF have I done with my life? compared to these boys who are younger than me, the youngest 7 years younger than I? I felt like useless piece of crap while these boys could have so much power to do so much, and be role models. i thought to myself that I felt insignificant compared to them because of their power and fame. But I watched the show and I realized that they are humans. They get lonely. They get scared. They are humans. They have went through so much ordeals. They still do. I am sure they feel uncertain at times. But their stories. How many "wows" could I say. They value life. They value each other. They value their friendships. They should make a movie out of their friendships and struggles. I personally have felt it more because i am prone to being lonely very easily. I am used to it. But seeing their friendship and endurance, I envy them.

update on SJ

• Pretty much all the boys on twitter are twitter whores, Sungmin the least (he is my favorite there on twitter, unless YS gets twitter ASAP)
• I take bunch of these quizzes on facebook and the person I get matched up from Sj is Eunhyuk. The ONLY reason is because I love dancing and so does he. But these quizzes, they are not accurate (I did get some share of HG, YS, LT, RW)
• They have been going on concerts after concerts, doing performances here and there
• Siwon had a surgery for something, it was just yesterday he posted a prayer meeting with bunch of entertainers when they prayed for Thailand's civil war
• SJ broke the world record for selling a lot of records after its release (it's already been 8 days.... wow, time flies.), I think 200,000, but I am not too sure.....
• I am sorry for Minah, but my favorite (ultimate) is Sorry, Sorry! I fell in love w/ it first sight
• I don't like the autotone for Minah, I can't recognize who sings what on it, besides Ryeowook's high-pitched voice
• "Boom" is nice (another song)
• I have yet to get the CD; there is version A and B and I heard there are just different pictures (it's embarrassing that I haven't ordered the CD yet, I still have yet to get Super Junior 05, their first discography.)
• I TERRIBLY MISSED KIBUM, KANGIN, and HANGENG, especially the last two. KIBUM not much because I don't know much about him.
• Super Junior (only Shindong, Eunhyuk, Yesung, Sungmin & Leeteuk) were singing a song "victory, Korea" for the World Cup this year. And it is super catchy. I want to buy the song. Addictive.... !!! Very spirited. Nationalistic.
• They had a 40 page spread on W magazine. And I hardly recognize them. They are not boys anymore. It's kind of scary, actually. They really looked like models. I mean it's easy for Eunhyuk who is the least camera shy, I think. He is a part time model, remember?
  
• So it sounds like Shindong wasn't "actually" proposing to his gf... but they are dating. It's been a long term relationship. Girl is very, very cute. She is a non-celebrity. I hope she doesn't get too much publicity and people would respect her privacy.
• The boys have been invited as guests at each other's Radio (Heechul's, Eunhyuk & Leeteuk, Shindong.) It's funny how they are doing it.
• It's kind of scary how these boys have muscles. I miss their cute selves to be honest w/ you.
  

remark from an anti

or a critique of SJ.

So this anonymous girl (I don't know who she is) dissed Sj... saying it's too many people in the group and saying how unattractive some of the members are. But these girls are about to get into cat fight. oh my~! Well she did say that my two biased boys are ugly. But people are entitled to their opinion. But it is scary when they call Shindong fat. I guess I am a true SJ fan if I feel insulted to hear when they call SD fat. Although he did remark about fat girls once on radio and that lowered my opinion of him. I appreciated him in the beginning because he was unique becuase he wasn't skinny like hte rest of them. well, here is what I wrote.

well I am a HUGE fan of SJ, but I gotta say you must have a lot of guts to say that. People could disagree, that’s alright. But I do respect u for your honesty though. But I gotta say that they are different and so that is why I appreciate them. I am not dissing you. You are entitled to your opinion. I like to hear different voices when they are singing a song. I guess some people could say 13 is a lot of members, but hey it could be charming if you look at it another way. It’s their charm, I guess you could say. I don’t diss antis although I am VERY supportive of SJ. We all have different beliefs and likes, ya know? I like them because their songs make me happy and they have great, strong friendships. But thanks for your honesty though. Hey if we all having same opinions, life would be boring. Sorry that you have to get so much hashing. We all have freedom of voice, right? But I am a huge fan! We all have different things we like. ~ From a much older SJ fan.

u think i am a crazy fan???

NO WAY!
there are fans crazier than I am.
I am actually not a crazy fan.
When I see what these fans do for Super Junior. wow. it's like their bloodline.
Giving lots of dough to UNICEF to celebrate for SJ comeback.
To make Youtube videos for SJ members to see
To feed the SJ members by bringing them food to the dorm.
it is CRAZY.
Maybe they are young and they have a lot of energy
Maybe it's because they don't have as much responsibilities as ADULTS
but STILL
their commitments are staggering.
I am nothing. DUST.
This blog is nothing compared to what other SJ fans do.
I mean you should see some of the forums. There are people called administrators.
they dedicate TIME, $$$$, voluntarily....
I mean for instance, Boys in teh City Book
it costs like $60. I am like gonna try to but it later, but still....
You could easily spend $1000 on SJ stuff. I spent very much less.
And these are high school students.
They don't care about being acknowledged by SJ members.
They just want to SUPPORT them with all their might.
i don't know how they do it.
I don't think I can. I am a low key person I guess.
I guess for a 29 female, this is hardcore too.

Note blue color for Sapphire Blue.

who eunhyuk reminds me of

my first love's best friend. when i was more than half my age.... hehe!
good times, good times... one of those Dawson's Creek moments (without the drama of it.)
Haha 90s baby, the best century ever ! I missed it ! He was lanky, tall and funny. Older than me though. I remember one guy told me he (my first love's BFF) was popular amongst ladies. that is a commonality with him and EH.

what if SJ members were just

normal people like you and I? would we go screaming after them? I wonder. I mean. There are a lot of good looking people out there that are as hot or hotter than SJ members. Yes I know SJ members are hot and goodlooking, blah, blah. What if I spot Ryeowook (if he wasn't as popular as now) in the streets of Flushing. would I be like, Oh wow, he's hot? Or would I just pass by him. of course all this media makes them really good looking. I mean I am sure that they are very good looking off camera; however, if you are presented in the media every day, you have to look better than the rest of us, right? I mean they are naturally good looking boys. That is why they appealed to me in the beginning anyway. On facebook, I do not comment or "like" half naked pictures of SJ boys. The reason? Because I don't see them that way. And if I do that to my biological brothers, for instance, that is just nasty. I don't want to treat SJ Boys as sexual objects. I dont' want that to be reason for me to like SJ. I want to like them for deeper reason. I know I did that in the past in my teenage years, but I ain't a teenager anyway. Besides, these boys are at least 2 years younger than I. I don't want to objectify them. They are humans. They deserve better than treating them like objects. I want to appreciate them as individuals. I understand. Teenagers go through that phase. I had my own share of phase. I was so happy when I heard Justin TImberlake was/ is a week younger than I. I remember I used to ohhhs and ahhhs when he used to dance, and be like omg he has an amazing bod! They are not objects or arm candies. I want to appreciate them as individuals and artists. But if I were to see them in Flushing or Herald Square of NYC, I would say "oh what a good looking boy" but then later on have forgotten about it and just walked by. It's what these entertainment business try to portray them as : objects or merchandise. And that is just plainly sad. Above all, they are humans like you and I before they are CELEBRITIES! I am sure they are flattered to be swooned by all these teenage girl fans. I just come from a different point of view being 2 years older than Leeteuk. I hope this did not offend teenage girls if they read it. I have been through that phase. Just saying that I am coming from a different vantage point than they are. I don't want to just marvel at their hot bods. Actually, it breaks my initial "image" of the boys as "cute." I see that the entertainment company is trying to objectify these boys and make them into "merchandise." by having them be half-naked. To me that is more depressing. The cute image I had of them is gone.

SJ are not just cute boys

I dont' like SJ because they are CUTE and HOT, etc. Well they are cute and hot, dont' get me wrong. But it's deeper than that. I remember. I wasn't a fan, per se. But I remember I used to crush on few members of N'SYNC (American group.) yes, I was a semi-fan of N'SYNC. I remember that sentiment as a junior/ senior in High School : oh my gaWD, Justin TIMBERLAKE is a hottie! Yes sirs and ma'ams, been through that stage. My assumption is that at least some girls that are into SJ like them because of their looks and charisma. Hey I was a teenager once. I know.I admit that they are hot and cute, but do you realize they are all younger than me? To me they are like my younger brothers, brothers I never had. That is how I see them as. Trust me I was once a teenager who used to be swoon over Enrique Ig.... (can't spell his last name,) or JT. I am at a different position than these girls. These girls would scream when they see hot bods of these young men. For me , it's different. I am past that age. I am not mesmerized by their hot bods. I am like whatever. I just see cute boys jumping up and down. They are just more handsome than average Korean males.

Hyukjae's week start nw

sorry Kangin. I don't know what to say. I just feel really really bad for you. I tried 2 write another letter for you, but words are not coming out because I feel terrible. I don't know how you are doing right now. I can't imagine. But wherever you are. Every week will be Kangin week, in a way. Because I could relate to you the best, I thinkI am sentimental towards u compared to Hangeng and Kibum. I think it's because we are TOO similar. in so many ridiculous ways. I just talk less than you do. But I will reserve writing that letter later on. When words are popping..

But to poppin' Eunhyuk and dancing machine and swagger boy.
legit nickname: silver, monkey anchovy!
WElcome to twitterworld!
(Allrisesilver : username) can I have at least half of your SWAGGER! the player. Ladies' man.

fantasy island

it is still very lonely to be the only 20 something SJ fan (in her late 20s) in NYC; especially, when NYC is a lonely city to begin with. Funny that it has helped me through loneliness. Someone needs to snap me back to reality because I am in happy land right now. I see these crestfallen faces, while i am happily looking at videos and music from them (IPOD, youtube.) I am saying is this fair? But it is true that it has helped me through periods of depression and loneliness. It really did. Problem is I am solo in enjoying this. i have nobody to share it. Maybe a couple of people from digital world. I guess it got kind of lonely blogging on my own. Enjoying it on my own. While people are frustrated with life, with work, kids, babies, schools, etc. Look at me. I feel like I am regressing in age. this is absurd. This is abnormal; as much as I love my SJ. I fear people would think that this is too much. While people are holding unto reality, I am fantasizign about perfect friendships that SJ holds. And I could be doing so much more than this. Sometimes i wonder if this is so meaningful. WTH am I doing? When you are in pain and you're hurting and you have no idea what to do about it: you regress in age. this is just my way of demonstrating it. So absurd and pathetic. I know my road to healing is long. Very long. It seems impossible.

Hangeng and solo career

So Hangeng will be pursuing solo career. I guess he is out. So sad. I guess it's permanent! Cry Cry!

Hyukjae's uneasiness reported on CY

The feeling is a little weird… Setting out with the feelings of debut…
So nervous until (I) can’t even sleep properly…
3 days 5 hours? Almost not sleeping? … T T.
The thighs and knees are a little bruised, did not sleep properly (and) face was a little swollen…
Really in this life that is not that good, did my very best in order to have the most perfect stage…
There is little pity (in the stage) ~~~~~~~~~ even though it was already very remarkable….
The moment (I was) standing on the stage, the tears is coming out….
Although I managed to hold back.. ^^
Now even feel like crying when looking at me on the stage with all of the members…
The seats that are filled with sapphire blue… If (I) cry the eyeliner will come off… So I hold it back…ㅋㅋ
Hoping/Awaiting for good results.. Although it is definately..
Even if that is not the case, also want to do the activities properly without regret…
As compared to others, I want to enjoy the stage I am on…
I want to become the brightest light on the stage…
The other members are really too handsome… Not that shiny during most of the time..ㅋㅋ
Also, really want to see our ELF… alot ~~~~~!!! ^^
Protecting us/Being with us like that… Thank you ^^
See me once per day!!!!!
We are!!!!!! Super Juni~~~or!!!!!

credit: Lee Hyukjae’s cyworld + 银赫家族
chinese translation: 小白
english translation: minoko2440 @ sapphirepearls.com

bonamana record

so the bonamana record is on FIRE!~
Pre-order - I heard about 200,000 sold, and crazy #s after.
It's been a success so far!
Wow!
I have to get mine. I just got mine for IPOD. I'd rather buy things @ stores. I think they sold more records than SORRY SORRY (third album) It's crazy...

another reason I became an SJ fan

a more depressing/ romantic reason

well, I experienced a one-sided love for 10 years. Same person. Right by the time I got over him, I had learned about SJ. yes in my heart, I told myself I would love him for the rest of my life, no matter what. But that withered, and I was disappointed w/ myself, for failing that promise. But it didn't help that he was no longer accessible anyway. At 1 point, I thought he was the one. I confessed to him many moons ago by writing a love (Valentine's day) card on a bluish green card (I remember looking for that card.) Although I had confessed two times before, this was meaningful. I decided to post hangeng's picture so that I could get rid of the so many of them. Heck I should do that with Eunhyuk's. He's got 10 billion pictures. He's not even my bias. He is upper though.

Sungmin & Yesung: it's not over yet

Hong Gil dong Encore: 6/5-6/13.. I wish I could be at Korea then, I would so go... I hope they are doing musicals next year, then i will definetely watch !!!!!!!!
Because I might be in Korea next summer (cross finger.)
I need a vacation...
OUR BOYS are back in TOWN!

Yesung's soundtrack....

so different from the other songs that he has sung.. such a sad song... such a sad drama... kind of made me teared while watching it on TV (because they were showing it there.) Guy (Yesung) knows how to elicit emotions through his voice. When I watched it on TV just now.. wow it is a powerful song.. I like dance music and not slow music, but this one just makes you feel hallow.

who does Kangin remind me of

Personality wise? ME! you know you may think I am a weirdo, but I know myself BEST. Definetely no way like the other guys... Don't have leadership skills like Leeteuk, no funny jokes by Heechul, no charisma like Hangeng, no confidence for his weirdness like Yesung, I am not funny like Shindong, i am not pretty like Sungmin, I am not like Eunhyuk for his limber and sensitivity, not like Donghae and hte rest (too lazy)! I am weird, but I do know myself the best! And I see kangin on TV shows, and I would have reacted the same way he did.. behaviors! I am thinking to much ! Yes I am!

who reminds me of the rest of the very very few BFs I had

and the many crushes I have had... !!! (see below, scroll down!)! and even current crush!































NOBODY!!!!!! including my favorites/ biases! this is freaky but I have a good friend who looks like Donghae... haha !! picture credit @@ Donghae's twitter

who reminds me of my first BF

Yes, this guy. 10 years ago. No hard feeling. Mutual leaving. It wasn't drama. no worries. 10 years ago. I promise you he was the same height as me, and had a Southern drawl. A korean who couldn't speak a dime of Korean. Felt distant because long-distance.. Me overweight.. he skinny as a toothpick and short as a (can't think of a word.) Interesting. had a high-pitched voice. Grew up in Atlanta Georgia. Good guy. 6 years older. No bitterness! RW doesn't have a Southern drawl. But at least the height and the high-pitched voice. MK was paler and had bigger eyes. But random thoughts. Sorry Sorry ! It was short term anyway (long distance.)

minah review compared to Sorry Sorry

I am Sorry Sorry, but I do prefer Sorry Sorry over Minah. I would respond this if someone pointed a gun at my head. Minah it's very very good, but the boys are too mature now. They grew up way too fast. Kind of shocked how they are losing their innocence.. I mean they are hot, but I first knew them because of their cuteness.

Haha my mom knows Kangin... Heechul.. Leeteuk and Shindong She think they are all ugly... boo! I told what about Sungmin. She said he has no charm. Too picky! I think she was more prone for Siwon, actually. We are so ridiculously different! I told her she was similar to Sungmin and he also likes pink. ha!

Sorry sorry to all fans of other boy bands!

But I thought Super Junior members were, overall, the hottest Korean boys I've seen! Sorry Sorry ! I've seen members of other male groups, sorry sorry, never were my cup of teas! the picture -t he part where they whirl around in the Sorry Sorry routine.. it's also known as the arrogant routine.. You see, they know. i admit when i saw sorry sorry, it's you, and minah... at first times at least, i was drooling... although I am older than all of them !the truth is the truth, yo! I think they are all "my types"

Yehae after SUKIRA broadcast

my favorite and the first guy i recognized... in Yesung's Cyworld...
Yesung looks great here; makes me forget his "fat women" comment (which will be forever embedded in my my mind... Yesung, you dork!)
This picture makes his fat woman comment forgivable, at least slightly... But wow, he is so cute! and handsome! sorry I am biased! Donghae you too; however, you got way too many women competing for you, I cannot compete anyway!

credit: @@ Donghae's twitter & Yesung's cyworld

marry u

so who do you think I could be married to..
it is not Yesung, not Sungmin, not Donghae, not Eunhyuk, nor hangeng, nor Kyu, nor leeteuk, nor Kibum, nor Kangin, nor shindong (well, he is taken and I am sure THEY ARE ALL TAKEN BY NOW), not Shiwon, nor Heechul

it's really not about looks. it's the personality. it's the sensitivity. He may not be the BEST looking person in SJ; but looks fade. He may not be the guy with the biggest build nor even the tallest (but the other end ** hint hint**), but his maternal nature and love of cooking is just shows how he is a very eligible bachelor! Lucky girl for whoever snatches him!

Sungmin tweet

right after I posted the blog... it's called coincidence :)
So modern day pretty boy posted this:
오늘 첫방….어 긴장된다….이제 조금있으면 올라간다….두근거림이 느껴지시나요?기대하세요~여러분도 두근거리게 해드리죠…

TRANS:
Today 1st performance….Ah so nervous….We’ll go to the stage soon….Can you feel my heart beat? Look forward to us~We’ll make your heat beat too…

cr: sungmin twitter| trans by ASHKooKoo @ twitter

Posted by (here): Tomboygirl

Sungmin day

so i was thinking a lot about my pink bunny, Sungmin today, I don't know. we are complete opposites(cuz i am most like Kangin; see Intimate Note show)! He replied to a twitter to an SJ fan who wrote about a her friend who died and how she is able to see sungmin from heaven (something like that.) it was touching that Sungmin wrote something sweet about that (back.) hehe! Their performance is coming up soon. To be honest, I don't know exactly when. I will have to check youtube tomorrow or the next day because for few days it's crunch time for school. But pink bunny! Nice face, Sungmin. To the cuteness overload boy!

[SHINDONG] BIG BIG NEWS

So, Shindong had used "codes" to propose to his girlfriend in the "thank you" part of the album. WOW! So, who would think of that! Wow that is the craziest thing I ever heard. So he wrote it in special codes and his fans had decoded it (I don't know how.)

She is a very cute girl. Very young looking. But very cute! Petite. Skinny with cute face. I mean she is very pretty, let me tell you. THe company SMent had confirmed that SHINDONG, our DONG DONG was PROPOSING?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!!?

WOW
Just wow
I am just in shock!
Hopefully she treats him right!
He deserves happiness because he is a great kid.

Just speaking, as she is hot/ cute. I realized as I think about the '85 kids. Kangin had pictures of pictures with him and an eye-candy in his arms. it's always tall, skinny girls.... His girlfriends are always HOT! If I was a guy, I'd find the girls attractive.

But going back to SD:

“Nari, let’s get married. I’m proposing. I’ll love you forever.”
So wedding bells for SJ? first person to get married? wow. he is young (shindong.)

This is really crazy. Propose on an album cover??????
IreaLLY hope that she treats him right!

Asia's HOTTEST men list

noSuper junior focused: of course:
63 - Donghae
47-Sungmin
29-Kibum
25-Eunhyuk
22-Ryeowook
13-Leeteuk
12-Kyuhyun
11-Siwon
5-Hangeng
2-HEECHUL

Woah HEECHUL! which SJ didn't make it: Yesung, Shindong, Kangin

Sorry, Sorry: yesung is not that popular, even though he has made big waves with his professional career! wow!

other korean actors I know
67 - Dongwook Kim
54- JeongMyung Cheon (woot)
40-Jihoon Joo
17-Kim HyunJoong
16- MinHo lee
3-Junki Lee

#1 goes to a DBSK member (lucky) I don't know any except Eunhyuk's BFF, Xiah Junsu

Leeteuk's cyworld up and running again

so i don't know how long it has been, but Leeteuk's cyworld was hacked and so he wasn' table to write his bury his soul in it...Mr. Philosophy. but it is up and running again. I think it's really been few days. But he wrote "FOREVER" on his title bar. I love these boys because these boys have PASSION! they have a motto and they have a purpose. I did comment on a twitpic (his.) It had a funny picture in it but my comment was serious. I wrote something along the line of (not exact words): "I am older than you, but I respect you as if you are an older brother." maybe it was too much :(

@@ credit at Leeteuk's cyworld