incredulous

So before I hit for the bed, I want to write a little summary of my day, etc, about Super Junior. Although I am trying to get to know the female artists to even things out (balance), I don't think it will be the extent of SJ. I talked about my fanship w/ SJ with my best friend, my older sister... not so different from my biological sister (if I had one.) I told her that my fanship w/ SJ is different from teens. I don't want to undermine their fanship or anything; I am sure it is sincere. But truth of the matter is: for the most part (although they don't want to believe it), they will grow out of it. I hate to burst the bubble and I hope that none of these youngins would read this entry. Or else they would throw rocks at me. But it is the truth... They will move on to college, to boyfriends, to marriage, to new friends, etc. This'd be true after many years. I don't want to say for all of them, because I am not a spokesperson for all teenage girls out there. I am sure there will be longlasting fans. But reality is that they will grow out of it, the teeny boppy stage. I don't want to say more before I be hammered.

It is incredulous that Super Junior's 4th album is coming out. I feel like I am dreaming. It is incredulous. I am in disbelief. It hasn't hit me yet until I see their first performance at Music Bank which will be held in a week(?). Yes they will perform in mid-may (5/14), the day after they release their new album (5/13)...which is very soon. It hasn't hit me yet. I am in dreamland. I've only been their fan since January and I am still trying to get to know them. They realized the "sorry, sorry" discography last year in March and they released their "it's you" discography exactly a year ago. To think that they will release the teaser tomorrow.

I am still conscientious that people will look at me with weird eyes. I am sure there are people who are laughing and scoffing at me already. Already fan pages are already off the hook with crazy amount of craziness and excitements from the fans. The fans are going crazy. I am 29 and I am going crazy myself.

Being a fan of SJ is a big deal, despite the plausibility of the chagrins I get from my peers and even younger folks. I am sure there are people who are looking at me with weird eyes already; I already feel it and sense it. Being an SJ fan at a late age is a big deal. If i was a teenager, 12-19 years old, then being a fan of a boy band is totally fine. But at 29? What the freak? Am I a freak? It is different being a fan at 29. You don't meet another 25-31 year old females or even males who are fans of boy bands or... something. Very few. And we are watched with vigilant eyes, as if we have gone completely mad or something.

It's an exciting time for Kpop world in terms of music. A lot of groups are releasing their new albums. Rain recently had performed in several things. So did Hyori Lee, which both I am disinterested in (Sorry Rain and Hyori fans.) But so many are releasing their new MVs that I am losing track of who is releasing what. But I do appreciate f(x) as a female group, so with 2NE1. But that is the extent of my appreciation w/ female groups.

So their teaser MV is coming out and this is so exciting. Tomorrow, the busiest day of the week. I won't have access to computer until late at night tmmw. Donghae and Leeteuk has showed great deal of excitement -to see the reactions of the fans already. I could tell Sungmin is not a big fan of twitters.

Most of these young folks are "fans" of multiple groups (like Shinee, SNSD, etc.). I only am a fan of SJ. Overall, there are some Korean groups that I don't appreciate and don't understand . Some of these groups are overrated, and I don't want to say which ones, before I get hammered by their fans.