about 4 months anniversary

and still strong, if not, stronger.
So I am relistening to Sorry Sorry many times. I never get sick of this song. usually, when I listen to songs, I only listen to once, if not , at least 2x and then I get so sick of it. But I could listen to SORRY SORRY for 20 times and would not be sick of it.
I have to say though, I was thinking on the bus home from some shopping on my own (after, need to cut down on spending since I spent $56 on the 2 CDs for SJ... and few other things, heh.) Well, I dont' think it is considered WASTE of $$ no way. I would donate some $$ to the boys (not to the company) if I could, but being a poor graduate students, blah. But I could listen to this a million times and I would not get sick of it.

I ask myself: why didn't they appear when I was 15, 16, 17, 18, etc... at errr... more appropriate time? Of course, Leeteuk, the eldest is two years younger than I so he would have been 13, etc. Donghae wold have been 10 and Kyuhyun would have been 8 and that would be mad awkward for little boys to sing. I still feel like being a fan now is still inappropriate. Like as if I am dating a minor. I am serious!

I am lucky that I am not a fan of another group. because I cannot, will not expend this much energy on being a fan. this is so much energy. Considering I had let go of my pride too. Might as well go all out. What about making a headquarter for a Super Junior fanclub in NYC? ha? could I do it? I thought about it... my gosh, would that be a waste of time? TOO MUCH. I think I will be satisfied being a math teacher. I can NEVER, EVER be i mean NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER (X100000000000000) NEVER be afan of another group. You know why? It's a lot of commitment to be a fan. And as you could see with me, I got all out! I am crazy. I bet you my friends want me to send me again to a mental asylum because of my craziness. But they make me so happy. Why ......they have brought happiness and less depression in my life. despite my age? My location? I feel like I am free from depression... to be honest w/ you.