another break from Bummie feast

Today was a great day, here are the reasons:

• I got complimented by my professor because my writing has improved
• Donghae has twitter, and I have another person to stalk besides Shindong
• today is gorgeous out
  
• I am happy with the progress i've been making w/ my geometry group (and we've been working our butts out; even was costing my mental sanity because of crazy # of hours we were pouring into)*****
• realizing I don't enjoy watching baseball as playing it in the field. I also wish to learn soccer
  
• realizing how proud I am (and how great God is) for putting me through this far. Writing my blog yesterday that 3 years ago that I was literally crawling and hardly moving and now I am able to see life in a new perspective
• loving the new and my (continued) old self
• being in love with being single (and have been for awhile actually)
• thanking God for providing me with (and continually) with wonderful people in my life, since the onset of me breaking away from the spiritually abusive church; doubling the quality and quantity of my friends (and even sometimes I think exponentially as well)
• always thanking God for providing my peace in my life, even though I have spots of dark moments too; but he is faithful nevertheless
• realizing at least this week (and I hope this last) that math education is a great field for me
• letting go of my old loves (crushes) even those that were severe; I am free from that part of my past**
  
• embracing my beautiful tomboy nature; and yet also embracing my femininity (the way the good Lord intended to)
• realizing how I blog when I am doing badly or my worst moments. This is not one of those times (just to let you know, audiences, that I do have very happy moment.*
• Without the good Lord today, I would literally, and I mean literally would not be alive today. Which suggests He has purpose for me to live (He made me realize this while I was going through a dark spell
• He (Lord) reminded me of the time when I got saved from what I thought was a retarded youth group retreat I went to before I entered college. I remember the message He told me; that I have a "God-shaped heart." For some reason, then, I realized why I am a believer.
  

• trying to maintain the 15-20 lbs I lost over the course of 5 months (although i am building muscles more than fat by):
  
  • doing 200 crunches here and there at a time, building a 6-pack (and to say that crunches are my absolute favorite workout ever!!!!), besides walking
    
  • walking around the track course or the park nearby about 7-8 times at a time, and treating myself to a large Dunkin Donuts Almond flavored iced coffee (I know it defeats the purpose.)
    
  • getting my Vitamin D more often by the sun (which has invigorates me to go outside more.)****
  • eating 0.5-0.75 as much as I used to
  • I think I am gaining some weight because of muscles I'm building*****

*I am realizing that I am bipolar because my mood swings are really ridiculous. Sometimes they change every second.
** Thank God!
*** I look like a dark freak
**** I wish to tone
***** Literally defined my life the last 2 months (sadly)

That being said. I know I have been taking a lot of breaks from Bummie posts, but to be honest, I hardly have any attachments to him compared to other members. Others members have faithfully up to date with all SuJu events; but he's been a deliquent. He's a good looking kid as you could see. But to me, compared to other members, he's a stranger. I wish he was more involved that would be great. But the more you see the person around, the more familiar he/ she becomes. That being said. Have you heard Eunhyuk sing? I mean the dude could dance, but he hardly sings, but I think he's talented!!! The very small portion where he sings in songs, I am impressed. Kid can sing and dance!! I also wish Yesung (who actually appears least in videos.) and Leeteuk(and he is talented vocally too.) The old videos I saw of Kibum, he could sing and rap too. I like his voice.
Tomorrow is the last SuJu Asian Tour (they call it Super Show.) #2 concert (held in Philippines.) I think they are more popular in Southeast Asian country and China, compared to Korea itself. But I am a weird 29 year old female NYer who is supporting my dongsaengs faithfully.

But in all seriousness, I think I am bipolar. How can mood change so frequently and drastically? Sorry for geeky comment, but it's like a sine curve. One point I hate the world; and another, I love it !! At one point, I don't trust anybody; and another i embrace everybody. well, I did participate in a Bipolar study, as poor student as I was in college, and got about 200$ for it! I only went to UPMC hospital twice. And for some reason, people have been telling me what a klutz they are, and I tell them this silly story where in my 3rd year in college, I walked into a stainless glass window in GAP, thinking it was all open. Ah~ Silly me. I think I had the bruise for awhile. I literally walked into it. Thank goodness nobody saw me :D