culture talk and other things

<- Choi Dong Wook/'84 (aka Se7en) I think he looks like Donghae

So I guess this will also be like my personal blog. I apolegize for last week and early next week. I feel like something (the devil) took control of me. I am not always like that. C'mon we are allowed to have our moments.

But I realize one thing. Maybe I am generalizing too much: some Asian Americans are anti-mainland-Asian culture. Like for instance, Korean music in 21st century. Alot of people are very critical about it. I've seen it in some Korean Americans. But I don't want to generalize since I know there are some of you who are into stuff like that like me. I know there are some people who are anti-Asian culture. Sure I am not too happy that Koreans are all getting plastic surgeries (well not all) but isn't it ranked up there? Too much into the physical appearance. I thought the 3 comments made by SJ members were ignorant because do they not know that in some culture, heavier set women are considered to be more attractive? This was especially true in long time ago when bigger women were considered to be attractive. How culture affects us? In that way, I am worried about Korea. This plastic surgery business is getting way out of control. It's all about the looks. well, that's another issue of its own.

But I used to be one of you - supercritical of Korean music. Just to tell you right off the bat that besides a few, I am not that into Korean music. I would also listen to America's top 40 on Z100 and especially 103.5 FM (all dance!) in my spare time. As a Korean American, I used to be so critical of Korean culture nowadays, that I did not want to associate myself with it. This was true in late teens to mid 20s. And then I realized, that I am more Koreanized than I thought i was. I realize that a lot of Korean Americans like to stay away from Korean Korean culture as much as possible (not all, but some) Some of us want to be identified as being "Americans" having nothing to do with being Korean. THat's just my hunch; I may be wrong.

You have no idea where I am coming from, ladies and gentlemen. Since college, I used to hate Korean music. It's so "corny", "stupid", "cheesy", etc etc etc, until last year. Whatever some of you guys may say. Only bands I really appreciate is Super Junior,FT Island and Se7en. And for the girls, wondergirls. I actually think they are talented.

I feel like for those who are into Korean music (and a huge fan like me), we are to receive a lot of criticisms and censures for it. i mean it took me a lot for me to open publicly my own SJ fan webpage (personal) as a Korean American 29year old living in NYC. I had to let go of my pride in this own. But it was for my personal own acceptance. It is a way for me to accept the Korean in me. I realize I am more Korean than I thought I was.I am not trying to bash anti-Korean music people. But us who is starting to appreciate the Korean culture nowadays (besides plastic surgery and overfocus on weight and looks), I wish we were given some liberty to enjoy them.

Like making a blog like this was a ridiculously HHHHHHHHHHUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE stepping stone. It's an acceptance that it's okay if people my cohorts think I am a freak or a loser. We all have something that doesn't make sense that makes us happy, nevertheless.I jus thave to acknowledged by Super Junior members to be this crazy fan as you all know by now.

STupid fact: I like to think I have Kyuhyun's voice because my voice is SO DEEP (and it is!) And I like to imitate KYC's voice!