Dear SJ members,// am a terrible fan// I don't know how to be 1

I highly doubt you will read any of these entries, but if you do please, I would like to forewarn you that all the entries that may seem like I am making fun of you, it is just for the fun of it. Sometimes my mood is foul and sometimes I want to be funny. I don't intend to hurt you or ridicule you purposefully. i realize how this site could be accessible since now about less than half of you have twitters. I doubt you will read my entry, let alone, say you do read them, I hope your English is not as proficient. I am so sorry if I have let the bar down, and seem like I am starting a rumor. This blog is a way for me to remember you. To be honest, I thought about writing you a snail mail fan letter, but realizing that I know I will write long and all my efforts will be in vain if any of my letters do get lost. I didn't intend to make fun of you. I just want to remember you guys in certain ways that is humorous and funny. I am not making fun of you guys. I will admit I am a terrible fan. I don't think i have a build of a fan to be honest. This fanship is something still foreign to me, because I am only a neonate: only been your fan for only 4 months maximum. And your group is the first and only group I've been a fan of. I am sorry if I appear to ridicule you. Life is sometimes too painful that sometimes we need an outlet in which we need to let it out. I know some of my posts have been sarcastic and even sadistic, even. I apolegize. I really highly esteem all individual members, although it is through your weaknesses that i remember you guys too. I think I wanted to show the readers who are less familiar to Sj that you guys are humans. I don't want to treat you like "idols" really. You are humans like us fans are. I don't think of you as "idols", per se. You guys are gifted in so many different talented ways. I appreciate all of your strengths and weaknesses, and as said a thousand times before, that is why i am a fan of yours. You don't prove yourself to be lofty and majestic. I am sorry this letter is no help at all either. And Making no sense either. My point is that i ama terrible fan, and I don't know how to be a fan. Thank you.