remark from an anti

or a critique of SJ.

So this anonymous girl (I don't know who she is) dissed Sj... saying it's too many people in the group and saying how unattractive some of the members are. But these girls are about to get into cat fight. oh my~! Well she did say that my two biased boys are ugly. But people are entitled to their opinion. But it is scary when they call Shindong fat. I guess I am a true SJ fan if I feel insulted to hear when they call SD fat. Although he did remark about fat girls once on radio and that lowered my opinion of him. I appreciated him in the beginning because he was unique becuase he wasn't skinny like hte rest of them. well, here is what I wrote.

well I am a HUGE fan of SJ, but I gotta say you must have a lot of guts to say that. People could disagree, that’s alright. But I do respect u for your honesty though. But I gotta say that they are different and so that is why I appreciate them. I am not dissing you. You are entitled to your opinion. I like to hear different voices when they are singing a song. I guess some people could say 13 is a lot of members, but hey it could be charming if you look at it another way. It’s their charm, I guess you could say. I don’t diss antis although I am VERY supportive of SJ. We all have different beliefs and likes, ya know? I like them because their songs make me happy and they have great, strong friendships. But thanks for your honesty though. Hey if we all having same opinions, life would be boring. Sorry that you have to get so much hashing. We all have freedom of voice, right? But I am a huge fan! We all have different things we like. ~ From a much older SJ fan.

u think i am a crazy fan???

NO WAY!
there are fans crazier than I am.
I am actually not a crazy fan.
When I see what these fans do for Super Junior. wow. it's like their bloodline.
Giving lots of dough to UNICEF to celebrate for SJ comeback.
To make Youtube videos for SJ members to see
To feed the SJ members by bringing them food to the dorm.
it is CRAZY.
Maybe they are young and they have a lot of energy
Maybe it's because they don't have as much responsibilities as ADULTS
but STILL
their commitments are staggering.
I am nothing. DUST.
This blog is nothing compared to what other SJ fans do.
I mean you should see some of the forums. There are people called administrators.
they dedicate TIME, $$$$, voluntarily....
I mean for instance, Boys in teh City Book
it costs like $60. I am like gonna try to but it later, but still....
You could easily spend $1000 on SJ stuff. I spent very much less.
And these are high school students.
They don't care about being acknowledged by SJ members.
They just want to SUPPORT them with all their might.
i don't know how they do it.
I don't think I can. I am a low key person I guess.
I guess for a 29 female, this is hardcore too.

Note blue color for Sapphire Blue.

who eunhyuk reminds me of

my first love's best friend. when i was more than half my age.... hehe!
good times, good times... one of those Dawson's Creek moments (without the drama of it.)
Haha 90s baby, the best century ever ! I missed it ! He was lanky, tall and funny. Older than me though. I remember one guy told me he (my first love's BFF) was popular amongst ladies. that is a commonality with him and EH.

what if SJ members were just

normal people like you and I? would we go screaming after them? I wonder. I mean. There are a lot of good looking people out there that are as hot or hotter than SJ members. Yes I know SJ members are hot and goodlooking, blah, blah. What if I spot Ryeowook (if he wasn't as popular as now) in the streets of Flushing. would I be like, Oh wow, he's hot? Or would I just pass by him. of course all this media makes them really good looking. I mean I am sure that they are very good looking off camera; however, if you are presented in the media every day, you have to look better than the rest of us, right? I mean they are naturally good looking boys. That is why they appealed to me in the beginning anyway. On facebook, I do not comment or "like" half naked pictures of SJ boys. The reason? Because I don't see them that way. And if I do that to my biological brothers, for instance, that is just nasty. I don't want to treat SJ Boys as sexual objects. I dont' want that to be reason for me to like SJ. I want to like them for deeper reason. I know I did that in the past in my teenage years, but I ain't a teenager anyway. Besides, these boys are at least 2 years younger than I. I don't want to objectify them. They are humans. They deserve better than treating them like objects. I want to appreciate them as individuals. I understand. Teenagers go through that phase. I had my own share of phase. I was so happy when I heard Justin TImberlake was/ is a week younger than I. I remember I used to ohhhs and ahhhs when he used to dance, and be like omg he has an amazing bod! They are not objects or arm candies. I want to appreciate them as individuals and artists. But if I were to see them in Flushing or Herald Square of NYC, I would say "oh what a good looking boy" but then later on have forgotten about it and just walked by. It's what these entertainment business try to portray them as : objects or merchandise. And that is just plainly sad. Above all, they are humans like you and I before they are CELEBRITIES! I am sure they are flattered to be swooned by all these teenage girl fans. I just come from a different point of view being 2 years older than Leeteuk. I hope this did not offend teenage girls if they read it. I have been through that phase. Just saying that I am coming from a different vantage point than they are. I don't want to just marvel at their hot bods. Actually, it breaks my initial "image" of the boys as "cute." I see that the entertainment company is trying to objectify these boys and make them into "merchandise." by having them be half-naked. To me that is more depressing. The cute image I had of them is gone.

SJ are not just cute boys

I dont' like SJ because they are CUTE and HOT, etc. Well they are cute and hot, dont' get me wrong. But it's deeper than that. I remember. I wasn't a fan, per se. But I remember I used to crush on few members of N'SYNC (American group.) yes, I was a semi-fan of N'SYNC. I remember that sentiment as a junior/ senior in High School : oh my gaWD, Justin TIMBERLAKE is a hottie! Yes sirs and ma'ams, been through that stage. My assumption is that at least some girls that are into SJ like them because of their looks and charisma. Hey I was a teenager once. I know.I admit that they are hot and cute, but do you realize they are all younger than me? To me they are like my younger brothers, brothers I never had. That is how I see them as. Trust me I was once a teenager who used to be swoon over Enrique Ig.... (can't spell his last name,) or JT. I am at a different position than these girls. These girls would scream when they see hot bods of these young men. For me , it's different. I am past that age. I am not mesmerized by their hot bods. I am like whatever. I just see cute boys jumping up and down. They are just more handsome than average Korean males.

Hyukjae's week start nw

sorry Kangin. I don't know what to say. I just feel really really bad for you. I tried 2 write another letter for you, but words are not coming out because I feel terrible. I don't know how you are doing right now. I can't imagine. But wherever you are. Every week will be Kangin week, in a way. Because I could relate to you the best, I thinkI am sentimental towards u compared to Hangeng and Kibum. I think it's because we are TOO similar. in so many ridiculous ways. I just talk less than you do. But I will reserve writing that letter later on. When words are popping..

But to poppin' Eunhyuk and dancing machine and swagger boy.
legit nickname: silver, monkey anchovy!
WElcome to twitterworld!
(Allrisesilver : username) can I have at least half of your SWAGGER! the player. Ladies' man.

fantasy island

it is still very lonely to be the only 20 something SJ fan (in her late 20s) in NYC; especially, when NYC is a lonely city to begin with. Funny that it has helped me through loneliness. Someone needs to snap me back to reality because I am in happy land right now. I see these crestfallen faces, while i am happily looking at videos and music from them (IPOD, youtube.) I am saying is this fair? But it is true that it has helped me through periods of depression and loneliness. It really did. Problem is I am solo in enjoying this. i have nobody to share it. Maybe a couple of people from digital world. I guess it got kind of lonely blogging on my own. Enjoying it on my own. While people are frustrated with life, with work, kids, babies, schools, etc. Look at me. I feel like I am regressing in age. this is absurd. This is abnormal; as much as I love my SJ. I fear people would think that this is too much. While people are holding unto reality, I am fantasizign about perfect friendships that SJ holds. And I could be doing so much more than this. Sometimes i wonder if this is so meaningful. WTH am I doing? When you are in pain and you're hurting and you have no idea what to do about it: you regress in age. this is just my way of demonstrating it. So absurd and pathetic. I know my road to healing is long. Very long. It seems impossible.